“It’s over between us! And I mean it this time.”
It was with such assertion they broke up, so much so that they wished they could obliterate every single memory they had of each other – at least, that was how she felt. Indeed, she was determined tio take her stand.
But…..who says old flames ever die?!
Encouraged, she was. Now she stands unattached…emotionally… freed, she thinks and poised to be more focused on life. There is so much to accomplish… oh! How I have been blinded, she thought – well, dint they say love is blind?
A few months down the line and everything seems picture perfect. Now she understands she is in charge and God is in control – hence no cause for alarm. As such, she is determined not to settle for less: no more crumbs!!
But then, you know that feeling we sometime have… that eerie chilly feeling that accompanies the moments just before you surrender to the forces of sleep… that feeling of loneliness, a feeling of ‘something’ being absent.
And so it was this particular night… something unusual happened, something feels absent… “I MISS him”… then thoughts went astray; remembering the good old days, those moments they shared…the silence…the company… even the absence – but this was a different absence entirely. How I wish…. Then nature calls… drifts off… and then cock crows! No. It’s her phone ringing. Half awake, the sound is strange… “Whose phone is it?” ….no it’s not… it’s a custom ringtone… one she has not heard in a while… oops! Talk of the devil! A case of “the witch crying at night and the baby died in the morning”, you would say!
‘COINCIDENCE’ she screamed, under her breath as her brain battled her heart…. OR could this be a sign? Ah! Sign? “I’m drifting”. Amidst confused thoughts, she picks the call….but after the 3rd ring. “Hello”… “Hi”… “…just called to say ‘hi’, etc. Jeez! No strings attached.
Did I hear someone mention “old flames”? Yeah right! They never die…
Day break! Now she missed him even more. “…what’s happening to me?” tempted to pick up the phone and just give him a call. “just to return the courtesy, you know!” it turns out she never got to wipe out those memories as she so wished back then – but who does, anyway?
Days later he calls again, and this time he is in town and would like to just check on her… the mere thought of seeing him again had induced in her, transient tachycardia… “…it’s just a visit” she mused… ‘we could even go see a movie or something’ … she thought she heard… Snaps back! …But then she knows what she is up against… she could hear that voice within her head whispering loudly: TEMPTATION!!! “Am not the girl you used to know…” all in a split second, her fingers hit the ‘red’ button… Oops! ‘Call ended’… having done all she must STAND, and that she just did!!!
“No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so you can stand up under it” 1 Cor. 10: 13